Lord Krishna Forum - Krishna Talk

nakor · Joined: 02 Jul 2007 Posts: 2 Location: India/UK

I vividly recall as a small kid (6-7), always thinking Krishna was my special protector. I had this small statue of Krishna playing flute that I treasured and kept in my terrace. I would go to it from time to time and talk to it, having faith that Krishna could hear me. I never waited to hear what He said because I knew He wouldn't say anything. All He wanted was to hear me. And for me to know that whatever I did, I would (or, should) be talking to Him about it.

Then, time progressed. The statue was forgotten. I grew up. I started thinking about stuff I thought I knew to be true as a kid and turned into an atheist. Then, as I kept growing up, I turned into a Buddhist and then an agnostic. Right now, I'm at a juncture again. By no means am I old, being in my early 20s. I have found Krishna again, or am trying to.

I had taken to a lot of hedonistic ways. Meat became my staple diet, and alcohol was always welcome and other such stuff. Then one day, I turned towards Krishna again. I reminded myself of my childhood and talked to Krishna of all that plagued me. I found myself a copy of the Gita not much later, and after reading it, I decided to follow some of its directives.

Now, I wont say I'm a different person, because I still follow some of the "sinful" ways written above, but I'm trying to understand some stuff.